December 20, 2009

A Lesson in Loneliness

I find myself coming home to a sky full of stars as the moon waxes and wanes to the tune of my breaking heart. This lesson in loneliness is more than I can bare and yet I continue to contemplate and wager the benefits of a life of solitude. I watch and want for you as your life falls apart whilst you are trying to build and change it into something new. People pulling you in every direction, I do my best to keep silent and scream only behind your back as to not further disrupt your ecosystem of confusion. In time the pieces will fall into place but for now I wait, want and continue learning loneliness. No amount of heavy drink or dancing can soothe away the pain of an unrequited infatuation, but I continue to substitute simple glances for actual substance. Your touch is too much while it means little to you, I have started to tumble down this rabbit hole, and each night I spend in solitude I start to convince myself of an exit strategy or how to dig deeper.

3 comments:

Doug said...

It isn't so bad, really. And there's cake. I do think this is the first time you've written about someone else's confusion. Usually the other in your pieces sounds whole.

Bathwater said...

Now this I can relate with but wish I could not. there really needs to be someone on the other side of that hole.

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